This love will never stop

Sometimes you love some musician and feel so sure you´ll love them for the rest of your life because everything they do seem to fit where you are in your life. And then they begin to do boring music and you stop loving them.... (sorry, but I really can´t mention all my lost loved ones here... there´s a lot and that would be a bit mean too ).

I have one love I feel confident will never stop. I simply can´t imagine it ever stopping. I´m totally addicted to this voice, this very magical voice.

There´s a whole life in that voice with fear, love, regret -  his life or my life or your life.... I´ve been addicted since 1999 and I´m still addicted. I even did know him before 1999 and liked him, but the details of that are sort of lost in my memory.... I wasn´t that sober in those days either.

Of course I´m talking about Joakim Thåström, who else could it be?
He even started out my artistic carriere because his 1999 album "Det e dom som e dom konstiga, det e jag som är normal" made such a strong impression on me, that I simply had to do something. Which turned out to be art.

On my webpage www.sadie.dk under Gallery you can see 3 long white silk dresses, called T(håström) Tripthycon. They are really my first sculpture, and my picture of what you looks like inside when you listen to Joakim Thåström. Here´s one of the photos, detailed photos can be seen on my website (crappy little photo, but I´m too lazy to find the flash usb with the big versions on it;-):

I even made him a hooded linen jacket with a angel with a sun in her hands painted on silk inside to throw light over his heart, and a little book with my scultures and my devotion to him.
I never heard anything back on that, but knowing about him meant that I had forgiven him for that already before I posted the stuff. So don´t worry; I still love you;-)

Here´s a video from the cd Skebokvarnsv. 209. It´s in swedish, but give it a try anyway even if you don´t understand the words:

Joakim Thåström Om black Jim

And here´s one of my favourite videos of him. I fear you might have to know a little history to fully appreciate this, but to me it´s one of the most beautiful videos ever:

Joakim Thåström & Mikael Wiehe - Keops pyramid Live

Here´s a picture. It´s taken by Jonas Linell (click to see bigger size):

David, I´ll wash your feet anytime

I can´t really think about anything I wouldn´t do for this voice:

From Sarah on Soundcloud
From Sarah "Demons" on Youtube

Their Facebookpage.

This must be the closests you can get to God without being dead.

Here´s a picture of the guy in control of this amazing voice, David Fjelstrup:

I stole the photo from Dann Nørgaard, I hope he doesn´t kill me.

New photomanipulations/I know you grow wings...

I´ve been doing this the last week, and thought I was ready to share them now.

I haven´t really decided the title yet. I´m inspired by a sentence by the swedish singer Joakim Thåström (my translation:) "I know you grow wings because your skin is too tight, and you want to fly away with them" (from ...Ingen neråt sång, cd´en Det är ni som e dom konstiga, det år jag som e normal 1999).
I mostly feel like naming the serie that (isn´t there some trend about very long titles right now? Or is that only in music?), but I´m a little insecure about how much I can quote without permission. And I´ve read somewhere that if you ask Thåström for permission on something like this, he simply never answer....

I might look into the laws about that sometime soon.

All the photos are old familyphotos of me and my family, and here they are (as usual click to see full size):

Most - but not all - wings used in these manipulations, are created by Obsidian Dawn and you can find them here: Obsidian Dawns homepage

Fallulah - or is human hair going to be the next thing?

I´ve been using human hair in my art for quite some years now. And it never stops to fascinate me how repulsive most people think the idea of somebody elses hair is. Mostly people won´t touch my art at all if it involves human hair.

So I found it very funny when I watched the danish music award show P3 Guld and the winner of the big prize, Fallulah, showed  up wearing a dress made partly out of human hair.

If I ever have the luck to meet this wonderful woman, I`ll make sure to ask her if anybody hughed her that evening.... anybody?

 

I don´t know who made this dress and where that idea came from (if you do know, please drop me a line). My friend Janis suggested "Maybe people have been watching you with hair in your art :))  Next they'll be dressing in teeth too :)". Dressing in teeth? I can hardly wait!

The photo is taken by  Per Lange, and I borrowed it from Gaffa´s homepage. I hope I´m not in trouble.

I love CODY:-)

I´ve always been kind of a reluctant blogperson (sorry Janis, I stole that word directly from your blog) not really sure what my blog is about. Or weather I even want to write it! Or weather it´s interesting (okay I have an answer to that: when I look at my statistic page and how meny people read this, it turns out my blog is not interesting. So now we got THAT cleared;-)).

And is it going to be personal? (Not that much going on there). Or is it going to be only about my art? (Not that much going on there either;-)).

This have been a really hard year, and I´ve discussed with myself about how much to write about it on the internet and what is too private.

Anyway, here it comes:

I have a little child in my life whom I´ve been concerned about. And this year have been fantastic in the way that now he lives in a fosterfamily, he´s happy and finally allowed to be just a little kid playing...

So things ended up in a good way and it´s a big relief. But my life have been turning a bit around because of this, and every time I think things are starting to settle down, whoops: it all turns around again and I can start all over getting adjusted.

Then I had this herniated disc and have been going throught a lot of pain, not to talk about the fear of a planned operation. Luckily my operation was cancelled, also thanks to my physiotherapist (which almost makes me forgive him for suggesting to film me doing excersice and putting it on Youtube...).

And then I had this fall which seemed to be all about rejection: refusal on 3 grant applications, and yes, the rejection from Statens Kunstråds Internationale Billedkunstudvalg was just a little hard. And it was hard to give up my plans for going to Pool Art Fair in Miami, where I participate with TAKE CARE, but I simply didn´t have the money. So my art will be there, but I won´t.

Then I got rejected at Kunstnernes Efterårsudstilling, and when I finally put myself together and applied for exhibits at 2 cafes here in Copenhagen, I got rejected there too. One of them was so kind to tell me that it was because "your art is too feminine and would make the cafe look girlish", so then I could think a little about that:-0

There have been good things too. One of them is music. I love music, everythings is easier when you can put on some music that fits your mood, and it makes hard times a little less hard.

One of the bands I like a lot is CODY. To be honest I started out with being a little bit in love with their guitarplayer David Fjelstrup (but since I´m not Demi Moore, I didn´t persue that).... but then the music really grew on me, and both their ep and the cd Songs have been on repeat on my mp3 player most of this year. And I´ve showed up at all the concert that I could possibly make it to. And I yet have to experience them doing at bad concert, that has simply not happened yet.

They gave a concert last saturday not far from where I live. I bought the ticket in september or something like that, and when saturday turned up I was soooo tired and feeling very fragile. But missing out on a CODYconcert is simply not possible, so I dragged myself out there by the hair. Alone of course, since I´m a old woman and all my friends only likes music that was popular in the 80ties....

And then in the middle of the concert Kaspar dedicated a song to me for showing up at all their concerts! I haven´t been so pleasantly surprised since.... well, I don´t know when. What a fantastic and thoughtful thing to do, and I didn´t suspect it at all, but it made me so happy!

This was so nice. And what a nice thing to discover: something good might come to you in a time when you don´t expect it. And you´ll never know. You´ll be feeling down and lousy and everything sucks, and tomorrow is going to be hard and next week is too, but something unexpected amazing could happen just in the middle of all this misery.

THAT is the best lesson I´ve learned for a very long time:-) So thank you Kaspar, that made a big difference!

This is the little boy in my life, I´m going to see him tomorrow:

And the winner is: Lars Dela

So my friend Lars is a really good photographer, and I`ve been trying to talk him into submitting photos for Gaffa Photo Award. But Lars is a very humble person, so he didn´t really trust himself to be good enough, and therefore never got around to doing it.

Therefore I´ve decided to make him the winner of this weeks big photo-event in Denmark: Sadie´s Photo Award 2010!

So here are the winning photos. They are all taken at a concert in Pumpehuset, Copenhagen in the end of May this year with the bands Monkey Cup Dress and CODY.

As usual click to see full size.

 

I travel heavy

This is one of the sculptures I applied with at KE10.

I just found out that I can find out on their homepage already tomorrow night if I´m out, or if I made it to the 3. round.

I´m just not sure I dare look? After all I was turned down for a job on tuesday, turned down for a grant for going to Miami yesterday (I think they gave around every third person that applied, so yes, I really was turned down), and then turned down at KE10 on friday? Can I do that? I´m not sure....

I´ll go to a concert tomorrow night (with Spejderrobot, I should remember to mention, since my best read posting yet was the one about him), and try not to think about it, and maybe... maybe... I´ll look on saturday morning. Maybe.

Okay. I´m not sure I really feel like this, but this is very late friday/very early saturday, and here´s this weeks update:

Tuesday: refused job application.
Wednesday: refused grant application for Miami.
Friday: refused grant application for Miami.
Friday: refused at KE10, I didn´t make it to the third round and NONE in the jury gave my work a yellow dot, which means special intrest or appreciation.

Next week? Come on! It can´t get any worse!

Eductional Plates re-worked

I re-worked my Educational Plates last week. To begin with they were about flowers and bees, but I weren´t really satisfied and thought they could do with some more edge. I think they have that now - actually I think they are a bit scary...

I´m applying at KE10 with these, amongst others, and as usually it´s impossible to know what the jury are looking for... but normally they are looking for something totally different than my stuff:-0

As usually: click to see full size.

 

 

Hoops (still in lack of a better name...)

This is that kind of project, where you start out with great enthusiasm, just to figure out that you really don´t know what to do - and then you stay like that for a loooooong time.

I think I bought these hoops a couple of year ago, and then they have been waiting in the corner of my livingroom, doing nothing but collecting dust.

Now I finally got something made. That´s fine. I just haven´t figured out yet what it is..... hence the lack of a proper title and explanation of what this is about.

The materials are hoops (made by DaneWood), silk in 2 colours, dried flowers, bird skeleton, fish skeleton, lacquer with Remazol dye (a way to colour lacquer and keep it transparent at the same time), filtet wool and horsehair, human teeths, printed text ("I have no skin, and therefore I can´t stop people from touching me inside"), pig intestine, Paverpol sculpture glue, glass beads formed as tears, white horsehair and a artificial eye (they took a lot of money for shipping it to Denmark, som I´m NOT going to advertise that company).

So in lack of an explanation, I´ll just give you the photos.

Sleep Party People photos

Actually I have a lot to post.... so maybe I´m going to be a bit hyper active the next couple of days?

I went to a concert with Sleep Party People in Little Vega, Copenhagen last saturday. It was really great, just a little short, so I´ll look forward to the time when they have a bigger pile of songs to perform.

I normally don´t take photos at concerts. I have a friend, Lars Dela, that does that very well instead, but he was busy somewhere else that night, so I decided to give it a try. Also because Sleep Party People always perform disguised as rabbits, and I wanted photos of that.
 
I have no idea of what settings to use in my camera, so I experimented a bit. And it turned out that the only thing working was something called night snap shot, so I ended up with only 3 photos that worked (and one of them needed a little help in photo editing from Janis Sawyer, thanks).

But I´m pretty proud of those 3 shots, so here they are (I even uploaded them on Gaffa Photo Award after they called for more female photographers, but I don´t have high expectations on that though):

(click on the photos to see the full version)

 

Spejderrobot

I know. I know. Yes, I DO know.

I should be posting more often. And I ought to post something about my new work, Hoops (in lack of a better title, so far). And maybe something about me applying for Kunstnernes Efterårsudstilling. KE10,  very soon - one of those juried exhibits, where you pay 475 kroner to apply,  and then they turn you down on a depressingly regular basic....

And I certainly ought to post something about going to Miami in december for Art Basel Miami Beach/Pool Art Fair (see, there I did it, it wasn´t that difficult after all;-)).

Maybe I´ll post something about Hoops tomorrow, or the day after, cause Lars will come tomorrow and help me take some decent photos. At least that´s what we hope, depending on the light and the mood of the camera.

But for now I think I´ll just post that video presentation Spejderrobot did of himself and put on Youtube, cause I think it´s the coolest video in the world, and I really admire him for making it. And I´ll copy him the moment I find out how to do something similar about my mental disease:-)

The reason I came to think about him tonight is that he applied for my friendship on Facebook today. I immidiately said YES, even though I suspect it to be some kind of mistake. He accidently hit the wrong button, I think, since I had the idea he got pretty tired of me on MySpace just because I asked him a billion questions...

Anyway here´s the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VbrfJAHjnhs

And this is the music (this is from the first album, you might buy the second as well;-)): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ai9NHHaRxFE&feature=related

NOT going to Roskilde Festival:-(

Well, I did buy my ticket to The Roskilde Festival, Northern Europes biggest music festival where I have been going every summer for 10 years now, just before the festival sold out and people started offering their firstborn in change for a ticket.
But then my cute physiotherapist, who have been treating my herniated disc, looked at me in this weird way and pointed out that this might not be the best idea I ever had, and would I then at least consider bringing a chair?

Have any of you been to Roskilde? Maybe going to my favourite scene/tent there, The Arena, who can house 17.000 people? And if it´s a REALLY popular band, there´ll be another 17.000 outside the tent. Bring a chair? He might as well have suggested I should bring a couple of elephants.

So I sold the ticket again, and at least made somebody else very happy.

But I was disappointed. Especially about the fact that I would be missing out on one of the concerts that I´ve been looking forward to the most: the Danish one-man-project/liveband Sleep Party People. I´m going to hear him play in Copenhagen later this autumn, but that´s just not the same as experiencing him at Roskilde... Roskilde is special.

So I had to express my frustration somehow. And since I´m anyway busy at the moment getting myself re-acuainted with Gimp(the free alternative, for those of us who can not afford Photoshop), and since Sleep Party People always perform disguised as rabbits, I stole a photo from Sleep Party People on Facebook (I´m sorry!) - a photo showing a band member looking out on Copenhagen from a rooftoop - and turned him into a rather frustrated an unhappy bunny....

I´m actually pretty satisfied with the outcome. So now I´m thinking if I should just go ahead, and harm a hole bunch of my favourite musicians?